Tomorrow I have my “Going back to work meeting” with my manager. I am partly dreading it and partly in denial that I am almost on the road to going back to work. 9 months already? How? It feels like only last month I had newborn Baby Boy in my arms and we were discussing names in the hospital!
I don’t actually go back till January so I still have 3 months left but from what my manager implied I think he might suggest a gradual ramp up into work to ease me back in.
There’s a big part of me that doesn’t actually want to go back at all! I love spending my days with baby and watching his new skills and tricks. Equally though there is a big part of me that is craving some mental stimulation and adult company. The other big factor is, of course, an income!
whined discussed on and off (and on and off, and on and off) with the hubby (and friends, and family, and Twitter, and the neighbour…and anything else living) I’ve decided Part time is best and ideally home based or with very minimal travel. It’s a massive change from what I am used to. A year ago I was a total workaholic working 50+ hour weeks. I’d sit in the evenings and weekends and catch up or get ahead. I had a massive team and an important area to look after. I never once imagined that I would feel so different about going back to work. I really really (maybe naively) thought that I’d return to work after a year and carry on working relentlessly and building my career. Incidentally I’m one of those weirdos that isn’t that interested in climbing the career ladder, I just like to do my job very well, “go the extra mile” and hopefully get rewarded for it. And I did. My manager is absolutely amazing. Like I said to the hubby, I have no pride… I would follow him anywhere to work for him!
Now though? I just want to go to work, do my hours (arrrgh, I can’t believe I am saying that!), and run home to play with Baby Boy. I never want to work in the evenings anymore or on weekends. I really need to make a list of my desires for tomorrow because I know I’ll get in there and being the “yes” woman that I am, agree to everything. I am so nervous but I am hoping my fabulous manager will drop a very attractive package in my lap. Well, here’s hoping!