Pregnancy Diary – Week 26

  This week I had the dreaded glucose tolerance test and I forgot how looooong and boring the whole thing is.  I was contemplating taking Little Z with me but so glad I didn’t now.  He would have been bouncing off the walls after the first hour.  I was pretty tempted to do the same after the second hour.  I think I was ready for a nap but the third and was glad to be out of there by the fourth.  Unfortunately I got a phone call the very next day from a nurse telling me my sugar levels are way too high and that I urgently need to go back in a few days.  I was so surprised, as it was fine in my last pregnancy, I forgot to ask if there’s anything I should do in the meantime.   So I’ve been reading up on gestational diabetes and apparently it can be common and can disappear once the baby is born.   Of course it may hang around for good and, with Type 2 diabetes in the family, it’s something I may be at higher risk from.   So for now I am banned from sweets and naughty sugary things.   It could also mean even more scans.  And more juggling of everything.

The baby seems very happy otherwise, continuing to party the night away and kicking all over the place.  It’s following the same pattern Little Z did and I think that means I tend to give birth to night owls that don’t like to sleep.  Uh oh.   

I am still on the worlds longest nesting marathon.  I have made so much space I probably won’t know what to do with it all but I am really really looking forward to a trip to IKEA soon to buy all manners of storage.  Its my most favourite thing to look at right now.  Under bed storage,  baskets, vacuum pack bags, pretty rectangle boxes, pretty hat boxes, bliss!   If anyone has any ideas on how to make the most of the space in a couple of tall boy style cupboards then please let me know.  That is my current quandary!  Once that’s done I’m starting on the kitchen cupboards.  

Apparently around now is the time pregnant ladies start getting a bit anxious about the future and that’s pretty spot on for me.   When Little Z came along life was full of wonderful things to look forward to.  A new baby to us meant nothing but excitement and cuteness was to follow.  First time parenting is pretty magical and delusional all at once and I think there is no ignorance like it.  You have no idea what’s about to hit you (with all the force of a speeding train) and you simply skip into it joyfully.  Until you find yourself bang in the midst of it sobbing from the sleepless nights.   At the same time the mental and emotional change is overwhelming.  You love this little thing more than anything and anyone else in the entire world.  They pip your other half, your friends, your siblings, your parents, everyone, to the post and instantly become the absolute most important thing in your life. The mother tiger instinct takes over and you would think nothing of scratching someone’s eyeballs out if they hurt your child.   You protect and cocoon them every step of the way and they are your precious.   Eventually you get used to letting this piece of your heart go exploring the world without you.  

So how on earth do you love another baby just as much?   Surely there is a favourite, right?  The history and bonding with your first born.  Can that be replicated all over again? Is it magical and all embracing, overwhelming. Or do you kind of just slot them in and do your best, trying to balance both and be fair between them?   Of course you love them as they’re a part of you but I can’t really get my head around it just yet. Two pieces of you going walkies around the world, just as precious as each other? Or does it just happen and you just have to change your emotional mindset all over again?  Pregnancy insomnia has a lot to answer for, all that thinking time!  For now, I am hoping for a bolt of lightning to just take over when the time comes.   

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  1. Jollyjillys June 22, 2015 / 7:24 am

    I hope you get some sleep soon its something i suffer from but im not having a baby lol.
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  2. Mim June 22, 2015 / 7:50 am

    Aww I hope the next test is clear πŸ™‚ I was just the same as you with all of those questions and I don’t know that I can answer them all but you certainly do have more than enough love for both and you love them completely equally but in a very different way πŸ™‚ make the most of the first one now and of your time together as you’ll soon be pulled in all directions but it’s just wonderful to have two mini people in your life who will love each other too! Mim x #maternitymonday
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  3. Caroline (Becoming a SAHM) June 22, 2015 / 9:22 am

    Ooh pregnancy insomnia definitely has a lot to answer for! Its a bizarre thing and I don’t know how to describe it but I adore both my children the same amount and there is a lot of balancing involved and trying to do what is best for both but I couldn’t say I have a favourite. I just love them both so much! And I am sure you will too πŸ™‚ It is funny though second time round as you know what is coming when baby arrives… But you also know you get through it and that the sleepless nights (hopefully) don’t last forever, so cling on to that as you enjoy your preparations! Lovely update and thanks for linking with #MaternityMondays
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  4. Susan Mann June 22, 2015 / 10:46 am

    I hope you get some sleep soon. I was the same when I was pregnant with my second, I didn’t see that I could love anyone as much as I loved my baby. I was worried I wouldn’t love them the same or as much. But I did, your heart seems to expand the bond between siblings is amazing to watch. Hugs xx
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  5. EmilyandIndiana June 22, 2015 / 11:53 am

    I’m totally with you on the pregnancy insomnia and too much time to think. I still don’t get how I can spread my love any further, but I’ve seen so many second time mums say your heart just grows xx
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  6. LauraCYMFT June 22, 2015 / 12:26 pm

    Oh you definitely don’t have a favourite. Your heart just grows to give you even more love to share. I found it easier second time around as I knew what I was doing so you’ll definitely feel more confident. The sleep won’t get any better for awhile though, sadly.
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  7. Silly Mummy June 22, 2015 / 12:36 pm

    It is hard to imagine how the new one is going to fit into your life, but they do & you love them just as much. It quickly becomes like they have always been there. Hope the gestational diabetes risk resolves itself. #magicmoments
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  8. Hannah | MakeDo&Push June 22, 2015 / 1:29 pm

    Sorry to hear about the glucose test results πŸ™ fingers crossed you can return to the land of cake soon… I’m not sure how I’d get through pregnancy (nay, life) without cake! I hope you also manage to get some sleep – I was having a little panic this morning about Peppercorn’s movements and Nick said “you realise he was kicking like a mad thing earlier when you fell back to sleep?” so it looks like I can now sleep through this… I wish the same for you πŸ˜‰ xxx
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  9. Louise June 22, 2015 / 1:42 pm

    Aww bless you. I was worried about the whole baby love thing with my second, but I can honestly say that I don’t love one more than the other. I don’t think I can explain how I feel about them, it’s not something I can put into words. But I love both of them to bits. It’s a mummy thing! πŸ™‚

    Louise x
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  10. Beth June 22, 2015 / 1:54 pm

    I felt exactly like you on the last paragraph.
    I was so scared I wasn’t going to love my second daughter – but I did. instant love. exactly the same as my first. you will be fine πŸ™‚ good luck xxx
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  11. Iona@redpeffer June 22, 2015 / 7:59 pm

    Oh, I remember feeling all of this. How could I possibly cope with a second, let alone love them as much as my first. But I did and I do. I echo what others have said really x
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  12. Charlotte June 22, 2015 / 8:12 pm

    Sorry about your test! I have mine in 2 weeks. I like to think that your heart swells every time you have a child so there’s plenty of room for all of them. πŸ™‚ xx
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  13. Sarah MumofThree World June 23, 2015 / 2:25 pm

    That’s a nightmare about your glucose test. I hope they’ve just messed it up.
    It made me feel all embotionsl reading about loving your babies. It’s all so true! Funnily enough, I love my second child instantly, but found it harder to bond first time round after a very long labour.
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  14. Merlinda Little (@pixiedusk) June 23, 2015 / 2:39 pm

    I had GD. At first we can control it with diet but when the baby is nearing out I had to inject insulin. My baby went out normal weight so I think its safe to say that we were able to control the sugar.

    I only have one child but I know how you can love two kids equally. With me and my sister I can say that there are no favorites. Just my mother knowing who needs more at one moment and who have the biggest heart to love to kids all at once =)

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  15. Sara | mumturnedmom June 23, 2015 / 3:00 pm

    Oh no to the glucose tests, fingers crossed for you. As for having enough love to go round, it just happens and you will wonder why you ever worried xx
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  16. Izzie Anderton June 25, 2015 / 8:43 am

    I hope your next set of test results are better than the first! I never went on to having any more babies after twins first time around, but I’m sure you’ll be better prepared this time around and you’ll have an extra pair of hands with Little Z. Wishing you lots of luck x
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  17. ghostwritermummy June 25, 2015 / 8:48 pm

    Do not worry at all about whether or not you can love another baby- of course you can. Your heart just expands thats all. Lovely update, hope all is ok with your blood sugars x x x
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  18. Patio June 26, 2015 / 11:25 am

    Really sorry to hear about the diabetes issue, it runs in my family too, so can always be such a worry. But i’m sure it will be nothing, and no need to worry! You will love your new baby just as much as the first, dont you worry about that!!!
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  19. Rachel @ The Ordinary Lovely June 26, 2015 / 9:14 pm

    I had gestational diabetes too which was horrendous as all I wanted to eat was sour sweets and all I wanted to drink was Sprite. It’s a nightmare but like you said, it does mostly disappear after the birth. I worried too but it was all completely unfounded. You’ll find that you end up loving Z and the little one even more than you thought possible because there’s nothing that touches a mother’s heart more than seeing her little ones love each other.
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